We live on a planet of free will and choice, and while most of us would agree, we want people to be kind and loving, not everyone will make this choice.
Years ago I got a call that a friend of mine was murdered, I got very cold, and started shaking. I realized I was going into shock. I started to run around this house, and considered things I could do to stop in the profound intensity of this pain. I thought to myself, I could have drink, or take a pill, but I realized there was nothing I could do to avoid the anguish I was feeling, so rather than running from it, I surrendered it – I fell to my knees, and I prayed. I said to God repeatedly, “This makes no sense, this makes no sense, this makes no sense!!” What I got in return was “This will never make sense from your limited human perspective, you have to trust in Me, there is a higher order, someday you will understand.” I realize if I want to live in peace, I MUST rest in this knowingness.
When I talked to Dr. Eben Alexander about his near death experience and his time with God, he spoke of the immense compassion God has for all of his children and that He is aware of how much it hurts to perceive being disconnected from God/Love for even a second or mere moment. Many people live their whole lives from the perception of disconnection. This breaks Gods heart and it can break ours. When we hurt, or observe hurting people who are making “bad choices”, we can choose to build walls around ourselves, or we can allow it to break us open.
I invite you to be in touch and let me know how you are doing.
Tammi Baliszsewski, Ph.D.